Step 2 - UNWANTED CHILD

Zzz... jus got back from work tired as usual, was a busy night shift again. Haiz wondering if there's something wrong wif my supervisor luck or is it jus fate that wanted us to work harder. People always have e impression on how slack are we.... They just would know how tough we are gg thru.

This morning... before heading home, my supervisor told me that I might be transferred/ on loan to another team. Just because of my right little finger when I fractured on 21 july 2007 during a soccer match. 'Sigh' seems like I m becoming AN UNWANTED CHILD pushing here n there. I wonder if I have done wrong by reporting I m on light duty....

I was Banned to play soccer... my team played a match yesterday before our shift. Our rivals were strong and we managed to squeeze in a 3 - 2... I was relieved. I couldnt play, so was standing at the side line supporting my team wearing our newly print jersey with words "mighty mouse" Hee my no. is 6. I m a defender. My legs were so wanting to play but I was not allowed. I just walked around shouting at my team mates.... Ha

Mighty mouse - orginated cos we nick our supervisor a CAT, so since we are all afraid of him we nicked ourself as mouse... I am called 'Small eyes mouse'

Her - There again I am thinking about her. There's so many stuff I wanna ask her. But its jus wasnt e right time or maybe I will never ask. I wanna know if she still think of me.... I wanna know why the recent coldness treatment... I wanna know why has it to be principle that makes us impossible... I miss her sweet messages, and her calls made in e morning greeting me 'Morning' It seems like we have became strangers overnight... =( I just wish I could turn back time. Badly do I wanna share what I am going thru to her but then again she have her own problems. Many a times I wanted to call her but I just dunno what to say.

What have I got myself into again... Its always the same Falling in love feeling and at e end a deep rejection. Prob I jus fall in love too quickly... or I am jus lonely. Actually, its tiring falling in love, putting efforts and the end of it. It became a blank. I have been going thru this so many times and I never LEARN. Its seems like I am every one passing cloud. When will I be able to find some one who loves for the way I am?

A Cursed? or I owe them fr previous life? Or should I be GAY!!!~

*yawn* I think thats enough for this morning... I wanna go sleep on this cosy raining day.... Night!